rainy sundae

today i was supposed to go watch someone run in the richmond flatlands race, but... i slept in. yes that makes two days in a row. ok today it was only 8am that i slept till, but dammit that's still sleeping in for me. so, i feel bad, and i shall apologize profusely tomorrow when i see him, but obviously i needed the sleep. in fact, i didn't go anywhere last night - i curled up in my bed with a bag of sunchips (such a guilty pleasure: cheese *and* corn), watched saturday night tv, finished off a novel, and was asleep before midnight. and, i might add, slept straight through till quarter of eight. i haven't done that in god knows how long.

it is amazing the difference a week makes, huh? this time last week i was already elbow deep in banana cream pie preparation, and was feeling particuarly miserable cause of mr. married's lack of communication. this week, while he did call me for a brief chat yesterday evening, i find that i'm pretty much apathetic about the situation. while i love him lots, and still miss him and miss hanging out with him, i just am not prepared to deal with the emotional baggage that goes with him, i guess, and am coming to that conclusion more and more firmly.

i wish *this* week was thanksgiving weekend, though, so i would only be halfway through my fourday weekend, and i would be upstairs cooking up a storm. i love cooking for people. i wish i could throw dinner parties once a week - ok that'd get expensive - once a month and have interesting vibrant people come to my home and drink wine and have amazing conversations. kind of like an algonquin round table sort of thing, but at my house and with more food and not so much alcoholism.

some friends (lemon, lime, mike b) and i always talk about what we'd do if one of us won the lottery, and sort of fantasize about buying this massive house and living in this quasi-communal household. i *love* that idea, because i really like having people in the house. i like having my own space, and have an intense need for privacy, but i crave the intellectual stimulation that comes with living with and being surrounded by intelligent creative people. i think with the right people you can easily balance those two needs. i also know it's just a pipe dream but hey, that's what "what would i do if i won the lottery" fantasies are all about, right?