the ugly stepsister

there is one of those old sayings that has always stuck with me: "there are girls men have fun with and girls men marry". it's like being the ugly stepsister in the fairy tale - i really don't think all of them were that ugly. they just weren't the princess, you know? i'm trying to figure out how to get from being the girl that guys just hang out with for fun to being the other kind. not that i necessarily want to get married... i just want to feel like i'm the most beautiful girl in the world for someone.

word of advice? don't call someone when they are stuck in an airport, thousands of miles away from friends and family, and end a relationship with them. no matter what you say, that action tells the person that they are, essentially, not worth any respect or consideration at all. especially don't do it when they have accepted screwed up travel arrangements that will mean 19 hours in airports or on planes because they are rushing home to be with you 'cause they know you are unhappy. hiding behind a bank of payphones, clutching a kleenex and a cellphone, sucks a lot. no matter where you are in the world.